?

i fell so .... strange..

its almost ;like the world around me isnt the world i belong to any more.

i dont know if that sounds right or if is seems com,pletely obsurd but i've never felt so out of place in my own skin and this feeling or not belonging in the place i really want to be.

its almost like everything i love doing taking pictures reading singing listening to music going tmo the pictures watching dvd's its like the last time i will do everything and its a very uncomfortable feeling.

have you ever tried to change you routine? lol i know random but i just feel like changing my routine .... i feel like i missing my things because my routine is all jacked up.
maybe thats the reason im feeling so out of place recently :S
i keeps say7ing right ...
thats it....
i'm gonna change my diet...
Take Better Care Of My Self..
Do my coursework....
Stop Fighting With My Sister...
Keep My Room Tidy....
and do you know what i do i actually do it ....
for about 3 days
i am truely useless lol. you know i'm 18... i'm meant to be good at stuff like this, you know the responsible one the good one the one people go to with their problems but i am actually sick of it lol you know from the age of 12 til now i have been the responsible i mean i had to i didnt have a choice in the matter. you know i got a quick bump into to reality and didnt get to you know .... accustom to what was happening... i had to be the big girl ond get on with it. and now i have been doing it ever since, i dont get a chance to do things for me. in 24 hours i say us, we and you more times than i say me or i. i never just do things for myself theres always a plus one in my plans.
but now that i'm 18 im an adult and its about time i start putting myself ahead of everyone else... take care of number 1 but its not who i am i'm not selfish:(

have you ever listened to a song and think ... "wow... thats my life... they wrote those lyrics about my life?" i have lol may be pathetic but i'm litening to hannah montana and her lyrics are speaking to nme completely !
"Every Part Of Me"
Maybe I Will Never Be Who I Was Before
Maybe I Dont Even Know Her AnyMore
Or Maybe Who I Am Today
Ain't So Far From Yesterday
Can I Find A Way To Be
EveryPartOfMe
<3<3